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  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgments

  Epigraph

  PROLOGUE

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  twenty one

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  twenty - three

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  twenty - five

  EPILOGUE

  Copyright Page

  For Holly, Natalie, Luke and Jackson

  The author would like to acknowledge Dan Smetanka, Janet Rosen, and Sheree Bykofsky for shepherding this work to publication, and Max Phillips, Chris Offutt, Elizabeth Mc-Cracken, Charles McIntyre, John Whalen, Melissa Van Beck, Desi Koehler, David Hamilton and Bob Ganahl for their support of his work these past years.

  We are lonesome animals. We spend all our life trying to be less lonesome. And one of our ancient methods is to tell a story.

  —John Steinbeck

  Strength is just an accident arising from the weakness of others.

  —Joseph Conrad

  PROLOGUE

  There was, even in Russell Strawl’s time, the myth of the strong silent man of the West. The reverse was closer to the mark. Geography and miles keep people few and far between, even in settled times. Their minds combat the silence and isolation inherent in such spaces by supplying their own narrative. The sound fills the waking hours and intrudes upon any dream they might recall. The remoteness in their gaze, the hesitance in responding to any word put to them, is neither contemplation nor the weight of seriousness nor peace nor solitude nor even alienation upon their souls; it is the jar of another’s words piling into the torrent of their own.

  For ten years preceding his marriage, Strawl policed the upper Okanogan country. In that time, he arrested 138 Indians, ninety-seven white men, and one woman, who nearly shot his hat from his head as he tried to talk her out of a pistol. He killed eleven men in flight because the circumstances made returning them alive too much trouble. Three others he killed returning fire, and one he beat into a moron with a blacksmith’s hammer.

  He deposited his checks directly into the army bank, and that kept him from drinking them up in the early days, though after a year, the work occupied him more than any tavern might. The Lord above filled the holes in the Sunday morning believers; the law began to do the same for Strawl.

  Strawl could smell a guilty man—perhaps because the odor was familiar. He could predict which rise he might pursue for his stand, because he himself would have chosen the same. In a person’s face, he recognized the seed of acts before he who owned it might. Among the stories told about him are those in which he announced to a suspect hoping to disappear in the hollow of a thicket: “You are considering the distance between yourself and the brush and whether I can get a round in you before you reach it. It is a good bet for you, nearly fifty/fifty. And once you are in the trees, well, your luck may hold for who knows how long. But then I will kill you instead of arrest you, which is simpler for me and requires no paperwork or trial. It’s up to you. If you’ve a weapon, you might even get a round into me, though no one has managed yet, and if you have a brain in your head, you know who I am.”

  And the pursued would consider his chances while Strawl opened his revolver and spun the cylinder to make certain each round remained in its place. He would likely fire one into the terrain above, raining dirt upon his man. Then he would linger silently, ignoring the conversation his suspect might employ to buy time or stave off boredom. Most instances, less than five minutes and his man would surrender his weapon from the brush. Strawl would treat him kindly with the cuffs and rope and help him to his mount if he possessed one.

  Some took hours, however. Strawl ate his supper and smoked cigarettes, then let The Governor drink from the coffeepot. If it was cold, he’d build a fire with as pitchy a fuel as he could find. A few patient enough to manage twilight threw insults at him as the light thinned upon the horizon. In the early years, he prepared for such contingencies by keeping the wind at his back, then lighting anything between himself and his quarry that took a match. Or if the ground was steep and the country right, he would lever boulders free with a bar and roll them onto the suspect’s position. Later in his career, waiting lost its capacity to entertain him, and, after an hour, he grew annoyed and threw army surplus hand grenades or smoke ordnance to move the conversation forward.

  His facility to stash heart and soul in a saddlebag and his man’s inability to do the same separated him from his prey; there was little human in it. Yet Strawl believed the state of every mind was thus and saw it as the central truth around which each man orbited, not considering the possibility that the star that held him in its gravity may not be a star at all, but a black planet and he a trivial moon, circling it.

  The moments when Strawl crashed against a door and spilled into a room, or knelt under a pine’s shadow outside a fire’s fitful light, every second belonged to itself and what occurred within it either informed the next or did not. Some appeared to blend like a painting’s oils, a pleasant serendipity, while others existed apart, as those on the pallete, the same colors a useless collision of time and reason.

  Justice was just a coincidence within the bedlam, a moment that when separated from the whirlwind turns simple enough to take on fairness’s guise. Prosecutors argue the malice in a thunderbolt ; defense attorneys the inevitable forces of the jet streams and barometric pressure and condensation and topography. Given the proper atmosphere, a tornado resided in each of us; only our circumstances differed.

  Sympathetic as the latter’s pain and damage might be in an acquaintance, a judge and gavel encouraged an ordinary person toward clarity. Jurors will avail themselves of any opportunity to hunt meaning in the dying winds and withdrawing rain inside a courtroom. Strawl had witnessed them rule more than one innocent man guilty just for a reprieve from the moral ambiguity outside the courthouse walls.

  Strawl, however, remained in the comfort of the storm, and he thought himself content.

  When a woman, the only one Strawl ever desired beyond the natural stirrings flesh is slave to, pierced that narrative for a time, it seemed evidence that nature, judgment, and good fortune had finally taken Strawl’s side. Women were not foremost in his thoughts. Church girls tended soldiers’ barracks, and on occasion the grocer’s daughter—Emma Everett was her name—visited Strawl’s billet to open the windows and trade out the bedding. She had a fine, straight nose and long, dark hair and possessed little of the formality that set him off of most women.

  She approached him in September. The air was heavy with dust and harvest chaff holding the light. She wore a long dress, thin enough to reveal the shadow of her legs in the lowering sun.

  “Would you enjoy a hale and hearty walk?” she asked him.

  “I traipse around all day long,” he said.

  She cocked her head and blinked her eyes at him, then puffed up her lower lip like a child.

  She extended her hand. He stood, but didn’t take hers, so she slipped it under his elbow. Dusk cloaked half her face and, in the shadows, he enjoyed her nose and thin lips and teeth slightly bent inward in a manner that the old women used to say came from keeping on the tit too long.

  On a bluff that overlooked China Bend, he sat in the damp grass and listened to the crickets rake their bellies. Emma bent to one knee with hi
m. Her shoes were within his reach. He wanted to bend and clean them with his handkerchief.

  “I’m working at the grocery,” Emma said. “I see nearly everyone in the county except you. Would it slay you to stop once in a while?”

  “Commandant does the shopping,” Strawl said.

  Her brow creased and she frowned.

  “I’m not much for conversation.”

  “Is it because people lie to you in your job?” Emma asked.

  “I have heard some whoppers,” Strawl chuckled. “Words turn just noise after a while. I suppose if a house was burning, ‘fire’ might be handy, but not nearly as much as a bucket of water.”

  “So those books on your bed stand, they must raise quite a din when you open them.” Strawl loved books. They were closed loops. He wondered if she was poking fun at him.

  “Why’d you haul me up here?” Strawl asked.

  “Because I didn’t think you would.”

  She bent and kissed him and her face erased the sky. She closed her eyes and her face turned blank as a piece of paper waiting for his writing.

  He held her head in his hand, pleased with the weight, then put his face to hers and their lips clobbered awkwardly. A drop of blood stained one of her front teeth. She kissed him again, and he tasted her blood in his mouth. Afterwards, he gazed down at the clear part in her hair and the white skin and her forehead and nose underneath. She turned her head up to his and he set his lips to hers. She parted her mouth like she was drinking from a stream and he felt his do the same.

  Emma took one of his hands and laced both hers over it. He clamped her wrists and pulled her toward him until she was stretched enough to kiss. Sweat stung his scalp. Her nose flared and her lungs filled. He found her dress buttons with his fingers. Hers fluttered on the backs of his hands like tiny birds. “Oh,” she said. “Oh.”

  He stared at her breasts loose under her camisole. “I don’t know what to do,” he said.

  She took his hand. “Please don’t think I do. Know what to do, I mean.”

  “I will think whatever you want me to,” Strawl said.

  She laughed a little. “Not knowing. That’s better than flowers or ribbon or perfume, really.”

  The second year of his marriage, Strawl tracked a bad half-breed for a month. The man’s path included a girl not more than fourteen raped with a tree branch and another, only a little older, beaten nearly to death then violated with a broken pool cue. His third woman, he took a breast as a trophy.

  The first woman had been conscious enough to offer a fair description : brown hair, cut with bangs in the front, a mustache, wiry strong. The second added he blinked too much. Even the third, in death, contributed the bloody red handkerchief that a man named Reynolds—who fit the rest of the descriptions—was known to favor. Strawl found him at the Red Garter in Coulee Dam sharing a pitcher of beer with two ranch hands between alfalfa cuttings.

  Strawl shot out Reynolds’s knees in the chair where he sat. The ranch hands scurried under a pool table. Strawl approached Reynolds, stepped on his wrist and put another bullet through his palm, then did the same to the other, leaving the ring finger dangling. Finally he hauled Reynolds by the ankles outside where he tied him to his horse and fired a round into the air. The horse bolted over the steep, paved road, Reynolds’s head whacking the asphalt each step. When the horse tired, Strawl shot into the sky again and the horse barreled onto the highway where he was fortunate to dodge a freight truck. No luck saved Reynolds, whose head smashed like a melon under the Studebaker’s wheels.

  For two months following, nearly every morning, Strawl and Emma woke to cut flowers on their doorsteps or fruit breads or a string of cleaned trout or a calf’s liver. Emma cooked or sliced each gift from the porch and invited neighbors to meals, serving them grand dinners that she allowed Strawl to enjoy by carrying the conversation, occasionally hauling him by callused hand into the kitchen where she shut the door and hooked the lock into the hoop and tongue-kissed him and banged her hips into his until both their faces flushed with ardor.

  Seven weeks later, he encountered a pervert suspect on a Nespelem street. The man drew his weapon like he was Jesse James himself and Strawl twisted out of the bullet’s path behind an elm. The pervert let off another round. Strawl saw it leave the barrel and the smoke following it. He dropped to one knee and heard the bullet thump into the withers of an Appaloosa brood mare tied to the livery post. The horse reared and dragged the shop’s porch into the street. Strawl rested his right wrist on his left and squeezed his pistol’s trigger. The bullet took the man’s testicles from his lingam. His pants leaked blood like he’d pissed himself red and both hands covered his plumbing like he might still mend. Strawl belted the man’s pistol and removed a knife and razor from his pockets, then walked to the stockade, where he ate a late lunch and afterwards sent a pair of corporals to collect the man, who lived to stand trial and serve twenty-three years in Walla Walla breaking granite to gravel to pave farm roads.

  One of the girls the man had victimized stopped by a week later with ajar of apricot jelly. “I slept three nights in a row now,” she told him. He said nothing, but Emma cried, and that night she pulled him to her like a hungry she-wolf and didn’t turn loose until the moon crossed half the sky. Strawl felt close to heroic.

  Emma informed him she was pregnant six weeks later, and he felt he had arrived in a strange country that he’d set out for but never expected to reach. Someone invited him to join a church. Emma was included in a fashionable quilting circle and the commandant suggested Strawl spend more time at his desk. He put his savings into a plot of land across the river and Emma began sketching house plans.

  His daughter arrived healthy and they named her Dorothy, though she soon became Dot. Emma clucked and hummed to the baby all hours, but to Strawl the child turned frustration. He found no edge to an infant he could grasp, and she became as foreign to him as the moon.

  Narrative could not reside in such routines, though, despite the fact most of living did. Strawl’s wife knew his twisting his hands and worrying the windows for what they were: foreshadows of an escape from her and his daughter for his work. They were no more interesting than a field to him. A description of a man and a litany of his crimes, though, made for a story that he, in those days of righteousness and ignorance, could end and rely upon as argument that the world contained patterns and logic and, if not justice, then at least retribution.

  The habit, however, required being alone, and the isolation drove his mind into his skull like a mussel into a shell. In his isolation he concluded each person ground the gristle and meat of his days and events and emotions into a meal he could feed himself and not feel empty. A person’s worth came down to his talents as a butcher; some cut and boned their hours and years without reckoning and wondered why they encountered blood at all, while others acknowledged themselves as the source of both the killing and the sausage.

  He was mistaken of course.

  When he was assigned what would eventually be called the Box Canyon Massacre, he had not yet surrendered his ignorance or his bliss.

  Box Canyon was north, and north was a direction like Hell was a place. Property lines and boundaries between counties or countries remained rumors. No one knew where Up North started and where it left off, but they were certain that it held all that white people feared and the little left they didn’t understand. Any disturbance that remained a mystery beyond a month the army relegated to that particular compass point, and when county and state police took up the army’s duties, they found it just as handy. Strawl had apprehended men in the north country, which was filled with mountains and trees and rock you found any other direction; the only difference was a later spring and earlier fall and a few wolves and panthers. The Indians knew this, but the BIA cops still attributed crimes that they themselves were accessories to or those that they were too indolent to investigate to that bearing.

  The Box Canyon Massacre took place neither in a Box Canyon, nor was
it a massacre. A family of Methow with no reputation for trouble left the reservation to pick huckleberries in the Okanogan foothills. A cattle rancher named Doering accosted the spindly group as they crossed his rangeland. The Indians quickly agreed to divert along a county road. The rancher, though, being German, possessed a bit of the Hun, and he shot the old grandfather who spoke for them in the shoulder. Horses reared and riders fell and, in the melee, the rancher broke his neck against a tree stump, and his straw boss’s thigh took a bullet—likely from Doering’s rifle, facts would later determine. The Doering widow, however, insisted it was murder, and the superintendent of police summoned Strawl to clear it up.

  The Methows knew enough of military justice to recognize their best chance lay in the high timber. They bolted for the deepest country in that portion of the state, north of Aeneas and beyond the Kettle River toward Curlew and the Canadian border. Severe as a steeple, all except the frost line remained canopied with pine and birch and aspen and tamarack, making tracking dark and humid, even midday. Add that to the carpet of ferns and brush that grew in such habitat and it was slow travel. It took Strawl six days to close on the group enough to hear them and another two days for a sighting. They labored across a trail that led around Chesaw Mountain, bearing their belongings on packboards and a travois. Above and below, sheer granite cliffs sparkled like fresh water.

  Strawl worked himself ahead of them at the foot of a talus slide. When they were within his sight once more, he fired a warning shot into the rocks above as was his habit when he wanted to stop a suspect he knew was already afraid. The gun belched sulfur and a smoke wisp and the report echoed against the rock. A second of silence passed, one that, looking back, should have made him uneasy, as the women should have at least shouted in surprise. A rush of stones followed. One tumbled through the trees a hundred feet below, scalping saplings and bushes in its path. An old woman wailed. The family had bolted in their fear and collapsed a soft part in the trail, Strawl surmised. As he approached the little band, he saw checked shirts and wool blankets scattered among the rocks along with stockings and unmatched shoes. Ten feet beneath the trail, he discovered the father and his son, half buried with stones.